まもなく2007年が終わります。
パソコンが壊れ更新が止まっていた僕の日記は,ようやく動き出しました。
パソコンが壊れていた間に起こったこと・・・約3年付き合った彼女と別れて、いろんなことが馬鹿馬鹿しく思えて、サークルに打ち込んで、バイトしてお金を貯めてタイを旅行して、ゼミに配属されて、卒業研究に着手した。そして今は就職活動も始まっている。
I wanted to forget everything that happend to us. I couldn't threw my feeling for her away. I coudn't give it up. Everyday's Drinking hurt me, but it healed me. I had to put my feelings in order.
Finally, I found a way of healing. That is a escaping from everything around my own. I decided to go Thailand,the country of Buddism,Art,Food,,,the whereabout of unreal.
In the Summer vacation, I went to The Thailand for 2weeks. I visited many temples, walked many streets, ate various foods, bought interesting folkcrafts and saw beautiful scenery.Everythings there excited me and brought me to life.
At the begining of Fall, my university life started again. I, the 3rd grade student, was assigned to the seminar to prepare the graduation thesis. my professor is the expert in the GENDER STUDIES. I chose her as my teacher because I wanted to write my graduation thesis with knowledge of Gender. I had decided to write my thesis for my "past" sweet. My past sweet, so lovely but dangerous to man.
"She is a femme fatale" I felt.
I dedicate my graduation thesis to her, to us, to our memory
I named my thesis "The Creation and Marketing of Femme Fatele". The definition of "Femme Fatale", The creation process of "femme fatale"images, The change of "femme fatale"images in Japanese society...I consider these themes in my thesis.
Who is the "Femme Fatele"??
This is the problem.
今年は、変化の年でした。 就職活動もがんばらなければいけませんが、この論文を、大学生活の証明としたいです。 よい新年を、迎えたいですね。
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